10.22.2003

btw... this is a very good weblog
hoseleh nadAram

meaning

i don't feel like writing

10.07.2003

ok... YOU're absolutely right... i've been wanting to link to a lot of people but i've just been lazy... so here're yours for now...
i'm lonley

i chewed my last eucalyptus gum from iran today... on the train... on my way home... while watching people watching people or reading or staring at their shoes or listening to something on a walkman as i do on the train... i just listened to my music and bathed in my loneliness... realizing it... thinking about it... feeding it... caressing it... it was just there... hanging out... making me feel those feelings that u feel when u're lonely... in ur stomach... in ur head... and the music went on... that's all i have these days... music and bunch of memories... a bunch of memories that i don't know what do with... a bunch of memories that i connect to music and get lost in... but all this means that i'm alive... and i feel... and i can go on... etc etc etc

u know what i found out in this trip? something i suspected for a long time... that EVERYthing DOES happen for a reason... and that everything and everyone is connected... and that things have a purpose... and my faith is stronger now because all this was proven to me... all of it...

but i'm still lonely

but that's for a reason too

i guess we'll find out soon enough...

10.03.2003

PAS WHERE THE FUCK IS MY OTHER HALF?!!